4=04=09

4-04-09

its even more intriguing vat a few "bad" days can force u to become
i look back now unbelieving .....thawt i was too strong....well i was...i am....atleast to the world...fckr...
but somebdy knows my true side....which is..weak,,....


00:00 hrs....i look at ma cell...it says shelly n gagan bdy rmdr...

haha ... i call gagan....my girlfrnd...but then it was ma cousin gagan(guy)...popat...ha...
( i guess the monotonous tone took the fun outta the whole thing!)

i called up shelly...he's a nice guy ... i like him...too gud a frnd...too nice a guy to be real...
he tol me about manpreet...that he still misses me...i was thnking of him too a few days bac...vatever...

this csl assgnmnt cud take forever...and the courses to be picked up next semster...*ck

i hav moved a lot on atlas shrggd...like the book...adore it...its so ..me...


its ma dadz bdy 2mrw...havn't bought a card as of yet...will buy one soon...will mail him one too...
we got trnsfrd....again...its been so long....never thawt we wud...pune..was so beautiful...and eventful too..
: - > him -- 12th ---1st in skul---informatics gold medal--basketball --- regional debate finals--frnds---iit -- HIM--

how can u get over somethng really touchingly beautiful...well u can't...and u don hav to...

sorry ma

i try to be brave mom

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but then its not as easy as it seems....

its gts to me somtetimes ...or rather i let it get to me....

its creepy mom...and its lonely...i miss u so much....i ddn't hav to be so brave...u tol me...warned me...even cried for me...

but i was blinded...and now the light is too much in my eyes....it sucks mom
and i love you so much
and
i don like this at all ...and i pray the lord my soul to keep...
to help me be me..
to help me remain me...

how do u preserve ur integrity in a place like this...???

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and now i know vat bad fud can do to girls and make them such...mom it was bad seeing this side of girls
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....r of human beings...
scary

shocking....sad
...pathetic