myxprofle

there comes a time when a path has to be chosen or one which has to left behind...

and hemul is on one such diverging road

hmm will she won't she?


bloody words


Say my love is easy had,
Say I'm bitten raw with pride,
Say I am too often sad-
Still behold me at your side.

Say I'm neither brave nor young,
Say I woo and coddle care,
Say the devil touched my tongue-
Still you have my heart to wear.

But say my verses do not scan,
And I get me another man!






another year,


presumptions presumptions presumptions...fuck the world

nevertheless

its the ol feel again
elstablishment and a bit of achievement

eeeek

how cliche the terms sound now

funny how xpctns never end...
and a few happy moments u conceive are just blown away by mere non-acknowledgement...
a few words wood be really nice to hear and even say
a few more wood jus push the fear away
but then a lot is left unsaid
and a lot more suspended unexpressed
is this another form of cowardice?

why r the intellects not clicking?
why the belief of being unbelievingly hard?
why the acceptance of something half good?

and why so the reactions?


and this is bloody good :)
n this is apparently very unlike me :
http://www.infinityiitd.com/creative/index-2-3.php?id=209&sc=9

see the new nameless post : lightning in the csl class

the gifts i brought
on my bed, stare at me
my thoughts clogged
are left to me
things i want to speak
but my eyes just stare
feelings suspended to somebody's care
objectives i once rejected
are now often perceived
and realised frequently
through the words we speak

the gifts i brought
on my bed, stare at me
my thoughts clogged
are left to me
things i want to speak
but my eyes just stare
feelings suspended to somebody's care
objectives i once rejected
are now often perceived
and realised frequently
through the words we speak

and they think i don like them...

its funnyy

now m having this feeling all over again

a bit surprised to admit it

but m missing my parents,,,

m not the arrogant mannerless snob they think i m

ok maybe a bit...

but i do really miss them...their company ...them

oh...how things used to be ...and how they r now....

4=04=09

4-04-09

its even more intriguing vat a few "bad" days can force u to become
i look back now unbelieving .....thawt i was too strong....well i was...i am....atleast to the world...fckr...
but somebdy knows my true side....which is..weak,,....


00:00 hrs....i look at ma cell...it says shelly n gagan bdy rmdr...

haha ... i call gagan....my girlfrnd...but then it was ma cousin gagan(guy)...popat...ha...
( i guess the monotonous tone took the fun outta the whole thing!)

i called up shelly...he's a nice guy ... i like him...too gud a frnd...too nice a guy to be real...
he tol me about manpreet...that he still misses me...i was thnking of him too a few days bac...vatever...

this csl assgnmnt cud take forever...and the courses to be picked up next semster...*ck

i hav moved a lot on atlas shrggd...like the book...adore it...its so ..me...


its ma dadz bdy 2mrw...havn't bought a card as of yet...will buy one soon...will mail him one too...
we got trnsfrd....again...its been so long....never thawt we wud...pune..was so beautiful...and eventful too..
: - > him -- 12th ---1st in skul---informatics gold medal--basketball --- regional debate finals--frnds---iit -- HIM--

how can u get over somethng really touchingly beautiful...well u can't...and u don hav to...

sorry ma

i try to be brave mom

...
but then its not as easy as it seems....

its gts to me somtetimes ...or rather i let it get to me....

its creepy mom...and its lonely...i miss u so much....i ddn't hav to be so brave...u tol me...warned me...even cried for me...

but i was blinded...and now the light is too much in my eyes....it sucks mom
and i love you so much
and
i don like this at all ...and i pray the lord my soul to keep...
to help me be me..
to help me remain me...

how do u preserve ur integrity in a place like this...???

...
and now i know vat bad fud can do to girls and make them such...mom it was bad seeing this side of girls
...
....r of human beings...
scary

shocking....sad
...pathetic

conscience or self???

Conscience is a hypothesized ability or faculty that distinguishes whether one's actions are right or wrong.....


its not much of a big issue but now i thnk i hav cum to a point in my life whr i m witnessing the change ,.....given that i m admist it!
a point whr conscience has become irrelevant( or so i thnk) and the self has taken over...

but this dominance is rather shrewd....i wish it were much like the fountnhd....
but i guess now i m bcming a part of the commonplace selfish ...whr if it affects me i'll bother...




the change has begun....the soulless must watch out!